oh boy.

onward to kansas tomorrow.

through this thick heat. buzzing cicadas. to thicker heat. humid air. swim to breathe. it's hotter there.

i guess my chest is tightening. my heart a little weepy. it's that moment where you sense that
maybe you were hazy and gliding too much before because something about you feels all too real. when you hear every word you say. when your smile isn't automatic. you sense you have just woken up. you know you push things back, push the thoughts of goodbyes back down to the no-fun place where they came from.

with that my brother and sister-in-law leave for Austin! and i can't wait to visit but i also can't wait to see them again. i have been so lucky and i feel so inwardly weepy but when i cry...and i will...and i am...it will be mixed with joy. onward and upward! i'm so excited for their new adventure. their new baby. their new fabulous dazzling and inspiring life! but i will miss them too! oh, goodbyes. you are splinter on the dock at sunset. you are a side cramp on a perfect jog. you are a bug in my lemonade and the gross rest stop on the highway of life. but by golly have we had fun and i just know in my heart there is so much to come. xoxo