SOMETIMES I'M MAD AT HIM, BUT I ALWAYS LOVE HIM.

he wrote me one of my favorite emails received, ever. he is an always

friend and a beautiful, tangled mess of romance, intelligence, humor

and goodness. he is the friend that will let you cry, hold your hand,

walk you home and drink whiskey in bed with you.

i said, i think i'm in love again.

he said, AGAIN? of course you are.

with a laugh and a mona lisa smile.

he looks at everyone with innocence and kindness. he said i'm completely in

love with her. i said, well, that trumps everything. and do you think about her-

when scary or sad things happen? is she who pops into your head, immediately?

Yes. I think about her all the time. well, there's your answer, then. go go go go.

(i love her too).

she said, i wish it were six months from now. i just wish it were april. and i think

most people have known that feeling, unfortunately. i am hoping and praying

that somehow her heart will heal in it's strange and invisible way and she will

wake up thinking that this day, is okay. and that the moment is alright and the

season is fine and even if nothing is perfect, everything is okay. and until then

i will be there, and after then, too. always.